Black Woman

To my sisters, this is a reminder of what makes us beautiful. To my brothers, this is a reminder that your love of us isn't futile, it's been earned... and then some!


WHAT IF I AM A BLACK WOMAN?
IS IT A DISEASE?
WELL, IF IT IS,I SURE HOPE IT'S CATCHING
BECAUSE THEY NEED TO POUR IT INTO A BOTTLE,
LABEL IT, AND SPRINKLE IT
ALL OVER THE PEOPLE~ MEN AND WOMEN~WHO
EVER LOVED OR CRIED, WORKED OR DIED
FOR ANY ONE OF US.
SO...WHAT IF I AM A BLACK WOMAN?
IS IT A CRIME? ARREST ME! BECAUSE I'M STRONG, BUT I'M GENTLE.
I'M SMART,BUT I'M LEARNING, I'M LOVING, BUT I'M HATEFUL.
AND I LIKE TO WORK BECAUSE I LIKE TO EAT AND FEED AND CLOTHE
AND HOUSE ME, MINE, AND YOURS AND EVERYBODYS,
LIKE I'VE BEEN DOING FOR THE PAST
300 YEARS.
WHAT IF I AM A BLACK WOMAN?
IS IT INSANE? COMMITT ME!
BECAUSE I WANT THE HAPPINESS,
NOT TEARS; TRUTHS, NOT
LIES; PLEASURE NOT PAIN;
SUNSHINE, NOT RAIN;
A MAN, NOT A CHILD!

WHAT IF I AM A BLACK WOMAN?
IS IT A SIN? PRAY FOR ME! AND PRAY FOR YOU TOO, IF YOU DON'T LIKE WOMEN OF COLOR BECAUSE WE ARE... MIDNIGHT BLACK, CHESTNUT BROWN, HONEY BRONZED, CHOCOLATE COVERED, COCOA DIPPED, BIGGED LIPPED, BIG HIPPED, BIG BREASTED, AND BEAUTIFUL ALL AT THE SAME TIME! SO...WHAT IF I AM A BLACK WOMAN?
DOES IT BOTHER YOU THAT MUCH BECAUSE
I WANT A MAN WHO WANTS ME...LOVES ME AND TRUSTS ME, AND RESPECTS ME
AND GIVES ME EVERYTHING BECAUSE I
GIVE HIM EVERYTHING BACK, PLUS!
WHAT IF I AM A BLACK WOMAN?
I'VE GOT RIGHTS, SAME AS YOU!
I HAVE WORKED FOR THEM, DIED FOR THEM, LIED FOR THEM, PLAYED AND LAID
FOR THEM, ON EVERY PLANTATION FROM ALABAMA TO BOSTON AND BACK!
WHAT IF I AM A BLACK WOMAN?
I LOVE ME, AND I WANT YOU TO LOVE ME TOO, BUT I AM, AS I'VE ALWAYS
BEEN, NEAR YOU, CLOSE TO YOU, BESIDE YOU, STRONG, GIVING, LOVING,
FOR OVER 300 YEARS,
YOUR BLACK WOMAN... LOVE ME!

Ferris

So reality just hit me and it hit me HARD!! My head as been so far in the clouds that i never realized that i havent came back to reality until now. I blame the Pisces in me because i look at the negative instead of the positive.
I've been at ferris going on my 5th year (yeah i know right, yet i have no degree or even certificate to show for it). I started off in the university college taking the first semester classes then the next semester I started taking general education classes. My second year is when I got into the respiratory care program (in which I didn't want to take in the first place, thanks to T.I.P (tuition incentive program) i had to start off in an associates program. I spent my sophmore and junior year being stuck, and it wasnt until i started my clinicals that i knew it wasnt for me. Most of the courses were easy but i was in it for the wrong reason and i want to do something that i love and not just what is there. So i switched majors during my junior year and started taking psychology classes. My senior year I've spent taking psychology and sociology classes and this summer I've taking my cultural awareness etcetc Classes. Now as I looked at my schedule and financial aid for the year, I told myself that i have no time to play or for games! This year is about disciple and motivation. And even though I have only been in my program "offically" for only a year, I've been at Ferris too long. I know that there are people who take longer than this to figure out what they want or even switch major often. I'm upset that i've wasted 2 years but I'm kinda happy that I did it now then wasted 4 years. As usual I'm over exaggerating but I don't like this and I'm ready to leave so this year it's about Anger management, Time management, Disciple, Determination, and motivation!!

Family reunions are about uniting the family, bringing together the young and old. Singing and dancing and thanking God, giving him the glory. Thanking him for getting us over. As we marched up the road this afternoon, what we saw were young men gambling, fighting, cussing. Women with no clothes on gyrating all over on this land. Do you see this shack. The man and woman we were born here gave birth to this generation. They were slaves. They worked this ground, but they bought it from the widow of the slave owner and that's the kind of blood we have running though our veins. That's the stock we are made of. What happened to us. What happened to us. Who are you. Do you know who you are. What happened to the pride and the dignity and the love and respect that we had for one another. Where did it go. And how, How do we get it back. I'ma tell you. Young Black men, take your place. We need you. Your sons and daughters need you. Did you understand what I just said. You were sold off and had no choice, yes but now it's time to stay. Take your place. Now. Starting now. Starting now. Young black women, you are more than your thighs and your hips. You are beautiful, strong, powerful. I want more from you. Take your place. I want every single one of you, young man, young woman, turn to the next person standing alongside of you. Grab them and hug them and tell them that you love 'em. Tell them, 'If you need anything, come to me.' 'If you need somebody to talk to, come to me.' 'I'll give you the shoulder, I'll give you the hug. I'll feed you, I'll clothe you if you need it. That's how you start from this moment. When you leave this reunion today, you take that with you. - Myrtle from Madea's Family Reunion

Love and the Family

FYI: Don't mind if i get off topic or start talking about something else!!! lol

Family <--- Sometimes it's just a word that we say. The meaning has changed so much that we barely even recognize it anymore. They say blood is thicker than water. Well i say that they body is made up of 70% water so what does that mean?

There are times when I dream of making my own family to make up for the one that I have now. It's not that I don't love my family its just that we are so dysfunctional that we fail to realize that we don't act like it! I've always longed for the love of my family and half the time I don't get it, so there has been a void in my heart. I'm often hurt when I try and try with my family. A couple of weeks ago we had a family reunion and I wanted to go because there were family who I haven't seen in so long, so I thought why not, it'll be fun! Smh nope, all wrong! Me being the person that I am, I tend to take on otters problems, try to help and fix things. All bad on my end, one day I will learn! Well the day of my grandmother's funeral things were okay, I hated the fact that it took a death in the family to have all of us together though! After that, my family reunion started that evening. Things were still going okay, until people started being selfish. The food was done and people were just like wild animals. The elderly didn't even get a plate yet! And my cousin who put herself in charge of the family shirts started acting rude and snobby! Just horrible...

I'm just hurt, the love that i wanted and needed from my father i didn't get it because he was not able to be here. The love that i have always longed from my mother i partially received, but do to certain circumstances it was taken away cause of something more powerful. So it's just a void in my heart and since i am big on family, i always want to see that love from them and though i do there are still some missing parts. I've longed for that unconditional love and though there are people who love me, i just want to feel that unconditionally. Through all the pain, through all the tears, through all the heartbreaks, i still believe that there is hope for love out there and I'm destined to find it. As i always say i love Love and i Love those who Love me! 

I can honestly say that ever since i have pledged Zeta Phi Beta Sorority Inc, i have been shown a lot of love and it warms my heart cause i know that there are great people in the sea of ignorant fools. It's just that void that i can't seem to shake, and i think about these people having babies, don't get me wrong i think about them a lot but i can wait, it's just something about the love from a baby to a mother. I've felt it and i want to feel it again! The hopeless Romantic in me believes that one day it will come... i just hope it comes soon!!

Adhd setting in so i'll ttyl!!!

Peace

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What they say

What they said and what they still say

I have to live with everyday

But what I make of it is the real case

They said I am fake and that I act white

They said I was to “Christian/Churchly” and

I have no life

They said I thought I was better than them and

I act uppity like I didn’t come from the same place they did

I don’t deny that I come from a broken home

But what I choose to make of my life is only my concern

Does my success intimidate you?

Is it because I don’t act a fool?

It is because I don’t have a child and I have my diploma?

It is because I am in college?

And I’m not running around with a boy calling me they baby mama?

I hope that one day you can put aside your jealousy

Because baby girl let me tell you, it’s not all that people make it to be.

I work my ass off everyday making sure that I don’t become another statistic

Taking the punches that come my way,

While trying to focus on God’s lyrics

Great things

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Peace