Love and the Family

FYI: Don't mind if i get off topic or start talking about something else!!! lol

Family <--- Sometimes it's just a word that we say. The meaning has changed so much that we barely even recognize it anymore. They say blood is thicker than water. Well i say that they body is made up of 70% water so what does that mean?

There are times when I dream of making my own family to make up for the one that I have now. It's not that I don't love my family its just that we are so dysfunctional that we fail to realize that we don't act like it! I've always longed for the love of my family and half the time I don't get it, so there has been a void in my heart. I'm often hurt when I try and try with my family. A couple of weeks ago we had a family reunion and I wanted to go because there were family who I haven't seen in so long, so I thought why not, it'll be fun! Smh nope, all wrong! Me being the person that I am, I tend to take on otters problems, try to help and fix things. All bad on my end, one day I will learn! Well the day of my grandmother's funeral things were okay, I hated the fact that it took a death in the family to have all of us together though! After that, my family reunion started that evening. Things were still going okay, until people started being selfish. The food was done and people were just like wild animals. The elderly didn't even get a plate yet! And my cousin who put herself in charge of the family shirts started acting rude and snobby! Just horrible...

I'm just hurt, the love that i wanted and needed from my father i didn't get it because he was not able to be here. The love that i have always longed from my mother i partially received, but do to certain circumstances it was taken away cause of something more powerful. So it's just a void in my heart and since i am big on family, i always want to see that love from them and though i do there are still some missing parts. I've longed for that unconditional love and though there are people who love me, i just want to feel that unconditionally. Through all the pain, through all the tears, through all the heartbreaks, i still believe that there is hope for love out there and I'm destined to find it. As i always say i love Love and i Love those who Love me! 

I can honestly say that ever since i have pledged Zeta Phi Beta Sorority Inc, i have been shown a lot of love and it warms my heart cause i know that there are great people in the sea of ignorant fools. It's just that void that i can't seem to shake, and i think about these people having babies, don't get me wrong i think about them a lot but i can wait, it's just something about the love from a baby to a mother. I've felt it and i want to feel it again! The hopeless Romantic in me believes that one day it will come... i just hope it comes soon!!

Adhd setting in so i'll ttyl!!!

Peace