Dear Mama

Dear Mama,
I miss the days we actually shared,
the moments and  times when i knew you cared.
The days before i knew what was wrong,
you hid it so well, like you didn't belong.
We didn't have much i knew that for a fact,
but the love that you had was never slacked.
Then things changed and i knew it would never be the same
the day that you left and never came back
My heart just dropped and felt like i'd been attacked.
I called out for you, yelled, screamed and shouted
but i knew deep down your mind had been rerouted.
There was no turning back i knew that now,
but in my heart i didn't know how.

....to be continued

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On the days that i need you the most you are not here,

yet i am selfish...

I'm hurting on the inside

yet you don't see or understand...

I lost someone who i will never get back,

yet you make it worse with broken promises...

My i don't care attitude is just a cover up,

For the pain, the hurt and the tears that never seem to go away...

I try and i try and i try,

but the more i try the more you don't seem to care..,.

I've stressed, went crazy and was depressed,

just so you could have the best...

I loved, i cared, and i tried,

But mama you never heard my silent cries...

Dear Dad

Dear Dad,

I hope your able to read this, or at least listen to my thoughts. I've long to hear your voice, even if it was a faint whisper i sought. I don't have many memories, so i create my own instead. All the hugs and kisses and sweet words that you would have said. I'll never know what it feels like to have that special bond. You left us so early, the day i faintly recall. It was horrible the way you left this earth, the events that lead on your day of birth. I hope you know that peace has not come, the questions unanswered and the words unheard. Its been 20 years since I've seen your face and it hurts to think about it but i know your in a better place. One day i hope to meet again, to add those memories we have to begin. Until that day i hope to say, that I've made you proud in every way! I love you Robert Lee Johnson.

From your daughter with Love
Brittany Marie Lofton

Society

The boy who gets five years

Is the one addicted to drugs

He's never hurt anyone

Yet he's treated like a thug.

A girl got two and a half years

When she defended herself in a fight

Yet the rapist got only six months

Someone tell me how this is right?

The mother who abandoned her kids

Got only a measly fine

The murderer got three years

He's treated like it wasn't a serious crime.

The monster's who abused their child

Between them, didn't even get one year

Just a few months is supposed to make up

For all the time that child lived in fear.

The drunk driver didn't get any time

Just a few points and a three month ban

Even though he took that child's life away

The one who'll never get the chance to be a man.

Seems like the law needs updating

Innocents need protecting more

If no one does something soon

The whole world will surely blow.

Bullies who drove someone to suicide

They didn't get punished at all

Seems like everyone's content so sit back

And just watch our society fall.

Life is like music, it has high notes and low notes. No matter how high or low you are keep in tune with God and you'll never go out of tune with the music in your life!

Live without pretending. Love without depending. Listen without defending. Speak without offending.

My Gift

God gave me the gift to influence

to guide those in need of direction

My influence is more powerful than any authority

God gave me the gift of sexuality and

reproductive abilities

I possess the ability to make you feel better

than any successful business merger or football game

hold the power to lengthen your days through 

producing generations that bear your name

God said that "man is the image and glory of God, 

but the woman is the glory of man (1 Cor 11:7)

I married myself today

I married myself today

fell in love, at a quarter to three

I needed some vows made

Just to lock in that special moment

in history

Something that i expressed how

important i am

Who's better to do it, if no one else can

I mean surely, i could have waited

maybe put it off

Until the red in my hear was fully shaded

Or, I'd question whether it was the right

or wrong thing to do

Maybe i rushed it, to fix

An ego that was bruised

I married myself today

I'm the only one besides God

Who loves me unconditionally

haven't found the one who defeats

the sun in my ray

who's given me a reason to no longer delay

So o stand up extend my fingers

and spread my wings

and grabbed the velvet box

with my flawless diamond ring in it

How much or how many carats don't matter

It's just a ploy for idle chit chatter

the principle of it all

it that it's important to me

this present was a symbol of my love for me

to live within my boundaries

be wedded and free

to be in love with no reservations

no more worries or tribulations

I married myself today

and with this ring i do wed thee

I wed the excitement i give to me

from the past, present, and future days

my right to be who i was meant to be

I will respect me

Wine and Dine me

Cuddle up and read a good book with

put bubbles in the bath for me

Say how much i love me

I pray for me

grab a hold and hug me

and most importantly look myself

in the eyes and see

how beautiful a bride i am to be

I married myself today

no worries for divorces or tempted strays

I will be dedicated, liberated

and elated by my strength

but my weakness, flaws, and 

things that i were and wasn't meant

I will buy myself a present

every now and then

to show how much i am my own best friend

I will send myself some flowers

and a card within

stating, oh how grateful and blessed i am

To have met my match a solid relationship

with an ebony queen attached

People will walk pass noticing the

glow on my face

Some just envy me 

for my style and grace

and some just wonder what the hell is so great

and i will smile and simply say

It's because i married myself today!

Always a mistress but never a wife

Always a mistress but never a wife

So i stop, step back and take a good 

look at my life

I'm fine as wine and that's no doubt

and married men, like vultures

seek me out

Sexy, attractive, dressed sharped

as a tack

And when it was over

i never looked back

Some were honest from the very start

Trying to be careful not to break my heart

Others told lies while looking and my eyes

Just to get between my thighs?

They only called when their wives

made them mad

AS i look at it now it was really sad

How desperate could i be?

When they didn't even want me

They choose their companion

And i'm just a stand in

For the women that they need

To bear all of thei seeds

Could it be greed?

I'm much stronger now and feeling great

Not looking for a man

Who already has a mate

I want a friend that i can grow to love

and this time he has to be sent from above

I no longer feel empathy, lonely or shallow

I want a single man, not a married fellow

I want to hold hands and laugh out loud

With my own man in public

or out in a crowd and feeling proud

Their secrets i'll keep and take to the grave

That's why they choose me

They had to feel safe

Well i'm talking now and i'm telling it all

Go home to your wife 

And please don't call! (2007)

Hidden Language

There are some words

never within

born from thoughts unspoken

but this hidden language

refuses

to be silent

it knocks on the door of the writer

The writer hears 

but the writer knows that

words aren't careful

words don't wait

words don't know

when they make mistakes

words don't listen

words don't learn

and once they leave

words don't return (2007)

Respect

Respect... is that something that you show?

Most people can't give it because it's something they don't know

Respect yourself and respect will be given

It's not that hard, if it's what your living

Respect is a lesson that everyone should learn
It must be given before it can be expected in return
Respect is something that’s given for free
It is about us and never about me

Respect yourself for it is very much needed

You will never regret it or be mistreated

Respect will hold you to a higher level

So that you will never ever settle

Respect is the basis on which relationships are founded
It is the anchor that keeps us well grounded
Respect builds the character and defines who we are
It sets the standard and raises the bar

Respect is magnanimous and helps to fulfil
It is the partner that sits with good will
Respect is like honey so sweet it’s perceived

It a taste to savour for when it’s received 

Sistah

When i look in the mirror, i see beauty undefined
From the color of my skin to my curves redesigned
A beautiful smile that would light up any room
Intellect that change any mood,

When i look in the mirror, i see many flaws
But that doesn't stop me because i love them all
It doesn't make me a bad person
It makes me a better person because they are not my burdens

When i look in the mirror, i see my Soul Sistah
That done to earth and always have your back sistah
That never let society change her sistah
My Beautiful, Natural hair, loving her curves
Kind hearted, Lady of Z Phi B Sistah